I keep chanting this to myself and to my children who did not want to get up this morning! I am like it's time to wake up it is only 2 and half days come on what can this week consist of not much go and get it over with. I don't know how many of you have any teenagers but I have a 15 year old and a 12 year old and let me tell you what I have days I ask myself "Will I survive the teenager years?" So many mood swings, never happy with their clothes and so on!!! They were still changing at 7:30 this morning. I finally just grab my purse and the keys and walk out to wait in the car. Finally they start coming out one by one and of course we left late. These girls crack me up I often tell them they have it made. When I was their age I got myself up, made my own breakfast, make sure I have everything I need for the day and left for school. Every morning I had no one to do all the extras for me. Of course they roll their eyes and say yeah I get it mom lol Clearly they don't and I have spoiled them.
I just want to give them what I did not have growing up. Losing my mom at an early age really made me grow up fast and I missed out on so much so I find myself maybe doing more than I should but they are only young once but I still make them have some responsibilities just not the ones I had.
I have been in such a funk this past month. My year anniversary of my surgery was the end of October. I had so many things going thru my head is it going to happen again and then I would worry and I tried to do things different than I did last year crazy I know like I didn't even make my pumpkin seeds repeating the same steps as last year felt like I was going to jinx myself. I have had some other health issues going on that has prevented me from working out for a while now. I am hoping to be able to get back at it soon. I miss my workouts. Anyone who follows my page knows that I have rarely missed a workout. It becomes a habit and I feel so much better afterwards. Sorry I have been so silent and I just was trying to grasp all the emotions I have been going thru. Don't let anyone tell you that having major surgery is nothing. The emotional side is something that I never thought I would go thru but it changes you. Just don't be too hard on yourself it takes time to get use to. Have a great day!!
